I Put On My Best Sunday Dress, Walked Straight Into This Mess Of Mine
“We read to know that we are not alone.” ~ C.S. Lewis
It’s been a relatively busy week; I’ve been out and about a lot more than I’m currently used to and there’s been a local music festival type thing on this weekend. This has meant that haven’t had time to finish writing anything this week, and now that I do have time I just want to sit quietly by myself and recover because my brain and my…
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“Visionary feminism is a wise and loving politics. It is rooted in the love of male and female being, refusing to privilege one over the other. The soul of feminist politics is the commitment to ending patriarchal domination of women and men, girls and boys. Love cannot exist in any relationship that is based on domination and coercion. Males cannot love themselves in…
“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.” ~ Robert Frost
So I have a few posts in the pipeline where I’m struggling to express myself in quite the way I want and I’m a bit too preoccupied this week to attempt to resolve that, so in the meantime I’ve borrowed this idea from Tim over at Short Stories and Sustenance.Three Things About Yourself:
- I’ve been shot at.…
“Depression isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign that you’ve been strong for too long.” ~ Elizabeth Gilbert
“The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us but those who win battles we know nothing about.”
“The struggle you’re in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow. Don’t give up.” ~ Robert Tew
“You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and…
“Sometimes I’m so tired, I look down at what I’m wearing, and if it’s comfortable enough to sleep in, I don’t even make it into my pajamas. I’m looking down, and I’m like, ‘T-shirt and stretchy pants? Yup, that’s fine. It’s pajama-y, good night.’” ~ Rebecca Romijn
I made it through my first week of work.
I wasn’t sure that I would.
At one point I did think that I might well die of tiredness first.
“A diamond doesn’t start out polished and shining. It once was nothing special, but with enough pressure and time, becomes spectacular. I’m that diamond.” ~ Solange Nicole
So I’ve been out of work, suffering with severe depression and anxiety, and basically living like a hermit since November last year. But over the past few weeks I’ve had to start venturing back into the world again.
> First, fix yourself a drink.
“As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.” ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
A nice cup of tea or coffee. A cool refreshing glass of fruit juice. A good whiskey or wine. Whatever beverage you think you’d most like right now.
And sit down somewhere quiet and enjoy it.
Put your phone to one side. Don’t check your work email. Don’t listen to the news.…
“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
So, I’ve noticed that a few people have arrived here over the last few weeks via Google searches relating to thoughts of suicide.
I always feel a bit weird when these things show up in my stats. I feel like because these people have come to my bit of the internet, presumably…
“Instead of loving your enemies – treat your friends a little better.” ~ E. W. Howe
So I feel like we’re due a proper catch up. I’m not entirely sure where to start but in no particular order here’s what I’ve been up to.
~ Drinking lots of milky chai.
~ Eating lots of Vienetta. I didn’t even know they still made Vienetta. I hadn’t even seen a Vienetta since approximately 1988. But for the last…
“Be patient towards all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live…
“I was talking to myself about you the other day, we were wondering what became of you.” ~ Friend Owl, Bambi
So I went AWOL from the internet again. I’d say I’m sorry and that I’ve missed you all but to be honest I haven’t really given this place much thought in the last few weeks. At first I got an ear infection and all I could think about was the excruiciating pain and how much concentration it…